the Pain

On the 22nd of november I sprained my ankle.. the pain.. kai.. I know how my grandma feels.. not being able to walk properly sucks big time..as in BIG TIME.. I need to thank God more for good health. I have been taking it for granted

Body and Soul

 So I have had this sitting in my drafts for ages. \i dont know why. Maybe it is because after typing it. I didn't want to agree that it was true.... o well

I need to stop giving out my body and holding back my soul. The disconnect  I feel is horrifying. I could make out with a guy and that would be it. No connection nothing. I find myself forcing all the nice stuff that comes after. The have you gotten home, it was nice seeing you today and what not.

What really gets to me is the attention. If they don't give me attention I get upset. Which is really weird. if a guy I was seeing at a point in time sees someone else at the same time, I wouldn't be upset. Well I lie I wouldn't be upset if he told me. Can't be finding out these things myself. It is very trying and annoying. Does that make me weird?? 

I haven't felt that connection in ages and it scares me. I think that is the reason I open my eyes when I kiss. I need to learn to give my soul.

But then giving your soul is how you get hurt.

So decided the next time it is going to be the whole package. Body plus soul. If I feel nothing.. he aint getting this jelly *does beyonce pop*

p.s i dont mean soul soul, I mean just letting go and allowing myself to actually feel. No holding back. Just needed to clarify that just incase there was any confusion about selling my soul to the devil or what not.

The Sweetest and Cutest 22 year old boy is attracted to me *sigh* and he is just my type. If only i could embrace my inner Cougar....

Barka De Sallah

4.49 and I'm awake again due to a toilet break. ugh need to start going back to sleep after these breaks.

Day 3 of my Get fit in 2 months and I'm dreading going to the gym today. My body still hurts from the last time. O well. No pain no gain I guess. Why can't I just wake up in the morning and be hot. Maybe I should try the 15minutes of skipping in this weeks challenge.

My figure 8 is becoming more like a 9 or on a good day 7 and a half but the devil is a liar. Day 2 of my  2 month get sexy plan and I am as hungry as a somalian. :-(

Birthday WishList

Around this time of year I get uber excited because my birthday is round the corner. Round the corner being 2months away but hey.. whateves

This year I have made a birthday wishlist.. since getting an ipad from my dad it has been left of my " List from an alternative universe"

Dear special friends who are reading this, the list is meant to be used. It is not for show.


List
- Mikado , my obsession with these things have reached their peak

- Viktor and Rolf Flower bomb
-Ankara!! I love ankara fabric but please not from da viva.. Their print is too european for me
- Fan di Fendi
- A 1463 NS polo.. They are too cute. And I like to buy nigerian.. Rumour has it that they are usually 10k but there is a promo now for 8k.. It is still a bit pricey tho.. Ah ah kilode

- That nice yellow dress from Greys  new collection or this nice bluee one

- Nail polish - for some reason all mine are spoilt and I only got 2 bottles when I went to the oversea :-(
-Cupcakes ^_^
- Pole people dvds (beginners, intermediate and advanced)
- A new set of make up brushes
- Shoeeees.... I love shoes.... i wear a 5 and a half but a 6 is fine... i have a special shoe list
a) http://www.asos.com/Vivienne-Westwood-for-Melissa/Vivienne-Westwood-for-Melissa-Ultragirl-V11-Buckled-Ballet-Flats/Prod/pgeproduct.aspx?iid=1634169&cid=4172&Rf-400=3085,3738,2937,3661&sh=0&pge=0&pgesize=200&sort=-1&clr=Cream

b) http://www.asos.com/Vivienne-Westwood-for-Melissa/Vivienne-Westwood-for-Melissa-Ultragirl-V11-cameo-ballet-flat/Prod/pgeproduct.aspx?iid=1634182&cid=4172&Rf-400=3085,3738,2937,3661&sh=0&pge=0&pgesize=200&sort=-1&clr=Vanilla


List from my Alternate Universe
- Diamonds from Graff
- A 5 day all expenses paid trip to dubai
- A 5 day trip to venice
- A new ipod 32gb since this is an alternative universe I might as well ask for an Itouch
 - Shooooooes again
a) http://www.net-a-porter.com/product/170632

b) http://www.net-a-porter.com/product/165365
c) http://www.net-a-porter.com/product/166328

Video of the Moment

Now I've never been a bey stan but she makes GREAT music......

Evertime I listen to Dangerously in Live I let out a huge sigh....