the Pain

On the 22nd of november I sprained my ankle.. the pain.. kai.. I know how my grandma feels.. not being able to walk properly sucks big time..as in BIG TIME.. I need to thank God more for good health. I have been taking it for granted

Body and Soul

 So I have had this sitting in my drafts for ages. \i dont know why. Maybe it is because after typing it. I didn't want to agree that it was true.... o well

I need to stop giving out my body and holding back my soul. The disconnect  I feel is horrifying. I could make out with a guy and that would be it. No connection nothing. I find myself forcing all the nice stuff that comes after. The have you gotten home, it was nice seeing you today and what not.

What really gets to me is the attention. If they don't give me attention I get upset. Which is really weird. if a guy I was seeing at a point in time sees someone else at the same time, I wouldn't be upset. Well I lie I wouldn't be upset if he told me. Can't be finding out these things myself. It is very trying and annoying. Does that make me weird?? 

I haven't felt that connection in ages and it scares me. I think that is the reason I open my eyes when I kiss. I need to learn to give my soul.

But then giving your soul is how you get hurt.

So decided the next time it is going to be the whole package. Body plus soul. If I feel nothing.. he aint getting this jelly *does beyonce pop*

p.s i dont mean soul soul, I mean just letting go and allowing myself to actually feel. No holding back. Just needed to clarify that just incase there was any confusion about selling my soul to the devil or what not.

The Sweetest and Cutest 22 year old boy is attracted to me *sigh* and he is just my type. If only i could embrace my inner Cougar....

Barka De Sallah

4.49 and I'm awake again due to a toilet break. ugh need to start going back to sleep after these breaks.

Day 3 of my Get fit in 2 months and I'm dreading going to the gym today. My body still hurts from the last time. O well. No pain no gain I guess. Why can't I just wake up in the morning and be hot. Maybe I should try the 15minutes of skipping in this weeks challenge.

My figure 8 is becoming more like a 9 or on a good day 7 and a half but the devil is a liar. Day 2 of my  2 month get sexy plan and I am as hungry as a somalian. :-(

Birthday WishList

Around this time of year I get uber excited because my birthday is round the corner. Round the corner being 2months away but hey.. whateves

This year I have made a birthday wishlist.. since getting an ipad from my dad it has been left of my " List from an alternative universe"

Dear special friends who are reading this, the list is meant to be used. It is not for show.


List
- Mikado , my obsession with these things have reached their peak

- Viktor and Rolf Flower bomb
-Ankara!! I love ankara fabric but please not from da viva.. Their print is too european for me
- Fan di Fendi
- A 1463 NS polo.. They are too cute. And I like to buy nigerian.. Rumour has it that they are usually 10k but there is a promo now for 8k.. It is still a bit pricey tho.. Ah ah kilode

- That nice yellow dress from Greys  new collection or this nice bluee one

- Nail polish - for some reason all mine are spoilt and I only got 2 bottles when I went to the oversea :-(
-Cupcakes ^_^
- Pole people dvds (beginners, intermediate and advanced)
- A new set of make up brushes
- Shoeeees.... I love shoes.... i wear a 5 and a half but a 6 is fine... i have a special shoe list
a) http://www.asos.com/Vivienne-Westwood-for-Melissa/Vivienne-Westwood-for-Melissa-Ultragirl-V11-Buckled-Ballet-Flats/Prod/pgeproduct.aspx?iid=1634169&cid=4172&Rf-400=3085,3738,2937,3661&sh=0&pge=0&pgesize=200&sort=-1&clr=Cream

b) http://www.asos.com/Vivienne-Westwood-for-Melissa/Vivienne-Westwood-for-Melissa-Ultragirl-V11-cameo-ballet-flat/Prod/pgeproduct.aspx?iid=1634182&cid=4172&Rf-400=3085,3738,2937,3661&sh=0&pge=0&pgesize=200&sort=-1&clr=Vanilla


List from my Alternate Universe
- Diamonds from Graff
- A 5 day all expenses paid trip to dubai
- A 5 day trip to venice
- A new ipod 32gb since this is an alternative universe I might as well ask for an Itouch
 - Shooooooes again
a) http://www.net-a-porter.com/product/170632

b) http://www.net-a-porter.com/product/165365
c) http://www.net-a-porter.com/product/166328

Video of the Moment

Now I've never been a bey stan but she makes GREAT music......

Evertime I listen to Dangerously in Live I let out a huge sigh....

So I just finished watching jumping the broom ^_^, i am so happy. It is such a cute film. My type of RomCom. Definately putting it on my list of movies to watch with my next.

The men in the movie were so goodlooking as well........ yummy!!!!! I likeeeeee

sigh.... why cant i meet a hot goodlooking christian man??? na so so douche bags wey fill this Lagos.Maybe i should relocate.....

Oh and Paula Patton Thicke is a stunner. I want her body.Dang!!!

I need someone to write me a poem about how great I am.... Actually i should just talk to my maker.

The problem is that I am bored. I need some excitement in my life. Not the make out with someone else' boyfriend type excitement but maybe a nice book to read.


I think i need to read a good book. One where i can totally absorb myself into the charactrs and not think about how bored i am.


This letting go of all your toasters thing is not easy. I could be washing some poor guy now but as i have decided to change that is not an option

The one thing I can never do is chase a guy. If he stops calling me Fine. Or if I feel in the slightest way that i'm disturbing him. I fade. I cannot come and chop insult because of some xy chromosome abeg.

And yes I know Prideis a vice but i am a blend of the old and the new and the woman should not have to chase a man. If you have to chase a man he does not want you enough and that is the beginning of a downward spiral.

So after months of this guy flirting with you , calling you, telling you he fancies you and what not, during a random ass conversation, you think to yourself , you know what this guy isnt half bad and he is quite entertaining, i'm sure i can grow to like him, and you say to him  " I think I like you a little, just small o not a lot" and you stop hearing from him... Such a wonderful, not confusing world we live in.

In other News, this was the year I fell in Love with Love. It is so cute.

My friend Nnamdi thinks anyone can be a writer. I disagree. I believ writing is an art form. A skill.A Talent. You either have it or you dont. And i've read a lot of books so I know what good writing is. Most nigerian Blogs are badly written. The Naked Convos.....errrrrr... Ive read too many bad pieces of work on there to be an avid follower but these people lap it up....sigh... i cant even shout

Oh and I love my hair. It is awesome 

UPDATE: So we finally talk and his excuse was that he felt I wasnt interested and he wanted to give me space. errrrr okay... now he calls me everyday, unfortunately I am a fickle soul and that ship has sailed. *shrug*

The next time I get fed the line "Right Girl, Wong Time" in any way, shape or form " I will pour hot soup on the man's face.. I mean.. Twice in one year... these men need to come off it... if I said ok how about we just be fuck buddies till you are ready I'm sure none of them will say No... Lai Lai... Carry your wahala and go abeg


Being a good girl has not paid off for me so far... o well.I will just keep at it.

Tschew

Maybe after the soup I might even throw in a generational curse or two

Ok I lie, it CAN NEVER be that serious

Needs and other stuff

okay so this has been the worst year in the history of worst years. I just ran up my mileage for didly squat...

I definately need a new job. I also need to start thinking about an alternative career path.

I also need to learn how to pray. it is something have been struggling with for a while

I definately need to lose some weight!!! What..I was quarter to bikini ready and now I'm almost back to where started. That being said just munched on 4 balls of ferroro rocher
I am ashamed of myself X_X

" You got it bad, when your on the phone, you hang up and you call right back"

I know what this feels like and I almost miss it. Almost tho...almost

Finally

I cant believe i finally re-opened you, after a year of looking down my nose at this new generation of bloggers. O well....

It has been what now, 3  years....

*sigh*

A lot has changed .... i have changed :-(