I miss him

As I speak with him, i type and I will say what I cannot...... I MISS YOU...... sigh....

I was so stupid to break up with you but i was proud but now I know....

And now you have someone else and I have gone through a long list of silly somebodies.

But I am happy for the friendship we have and I hope we have this forever.

And I know I never said it but now that I think back I think I must have loved you.

Mayhap

I don't know.

Anyway you will always be my favorite EVER

LoL

And now your lecturing me about being too picky -_-, please buzz off abed... LOOOOOL

Sooooooo

ummmm yeah.....

I'm sorry

Anyway moving on from the formalities

I saw something about being sad and happy at the same time and i felt like i could relate just that i am not happy and sad, more like content and discontent. One minute I love my life and the next minute not so much. When i say not so much i don't mean it in a I want to slit my wrists way but in a ' SCREEEEEAMMMMMM why is my life so mundane sort of way'

*sigh*

I used to think I was very uncomplicated but now I know myself better and on a scale of 1- 10, 10 being the most complicated I am an 8.5... working on it but it is a slooooow process

I find everything so boring and done nowadays....

Well apart from last thursday when I almost had a melt down while driving. I was 2 seconds away from tears. Then I decided to go and get a smoothie from silifabud, met a friend there and my day got better.

The most important thing I learnt last week is that it isn't over until God says it is over.

That being said I am now a fatty mc fattie., as i type this my size 10 jeans are begging to be taken off, I can hear it's cry for help, the whimper ' please, please'

Sigh. Pilates tomorrow. Round One. And E is such a bitch I know she won't take it easy on me


xoxo